Speak is Silver, Silence is Gold

It seems like the more I speak, things got worse. Sometimes, I felt like a born loser when it comes to arguments. From past till present, I  alwyas ended up being hurted the most *sigh*. Sometimes somehow, I wished if I could speak like a pro debater/lawyer so firm and steady, never break down, win/lose with glory. I should practice silence is gold more rather than speak is silver. Gold is definitely better than silver rite!

Tired...

I'm tired, really tired...

Patience is Virtue

Sometimes, I tried reli hard to practise 'patience is virtue' but I always lose it, I failed to bear with it. Damn PMS! I used to be a damn patience person, where did it went? sigh...

American Idol Season 8

Right now, I'm regretted for not watching it earlier. I should have dl-ed all the American Idol(s) into my hard disk while I'm still at UTP. Gawd, I miss DC++!!! Everything was so convenient back then with UTP DC++ network. Final sem was quite busy, I rmber I have only watched a TVB drama and a season of ANTM (sth I watched every sem). I thought tat was sufficient n din want to watch so much bcoz it's distracting...wanna concentrate to score good grades so tats y I'm sooo outdated.

I have heard my friends saying how great season 8 is but still it didn't lure me to watch it. During my short trip to KL, I actually watched the finale n man...it was damn good so I decided to dl n watch it when I'm free. Watching the contestant singing, the cheerings fr the crowd actually makes me v happy n kinda touch. These Americans definitely vote the best. My fave is Kris Allen. I love his vocals. He's such a sweet guy next door, very cute n very humble. I'm envious of his wife, nah! I'm just kidding, haha! He is v talented, can play guitar n most imp, he plays the piano...I admire guys who can play piano, wat more sing + play...v talented n *melt* my heart literally. Thr was once he chose Kanye's Heartless. I actually dislike that song. But Kris arrange n sang it in his own way n it was damn good. I actually like Kris version of Heartless rather than Kanye West's. Oops...

I kinda like Danny Gokey as well, he is quite macho actually and he has got a quite sexy vocal. Most imp is tat he is a great singer as well. Kinda sweet guy oso. I prefer him not wearing spec coz his eyes r actually quite pretty but nah, I don't mean he's a pretty boy, he's not. Adam is a great singer n performer but I don't reli like the way he sing, he scream way too much...sometimes I got irritated by his screaming, lol! Actually he is quite looking but y do he have to apply eyeliner all the time, n black nail color zzz. Oh, is he reli a gay? tats wat I read fr MSN news quite some time ago. N thr's a funny thing. I rmber I met my Egyptian unimate in the cafeteria (he went thr just to watch cafeteria, we dun hav tv in our hostel so...). It was Adam Lambert singing that time and I asked if he liked him. He answer me "nah, I don't like him, he's a gay" ROFL!!!

 

Kris Allen, I love you!!!

Sigh...

It have been two mth plus since I came back to uni. I can't imagine how time flies...my four years of uni life just poof...done wif it. I seriously miss my uni life. We don't have curfew there, whenever u feel like going out, just go ahead (provided u hav ur own transportation, of coz...) then whenever u feel like coming back, just come back (as long as u hav ur matric card wif u). I even pretended to sleep coz I forgot to bring my matric card. But tis is nt a good way, sometimes the guard do ask ur frens to wake u up to check tat, depends on ur luck.

Till now, I'm still trying to adapt with my working life. It's weird tat I adapt things quite slow this time. My first time leaving Miri was when I pursue my studies in Perak. I rmber I adapted my new life pretty fast, within a month time. Now, I'm back in Miri to work. It's good to stay at hometown whr everything is so convenient, comfortable and easily accessible. However, it's sad for working full day on Sat. Sat suppose to be shoppin n yamcha happy hour eh. Oh well, I should look at the brighter side, working on Sat prevents me to splurge on shopping / entertainments.

Now I understand why ppl tell me once u start to work, u doesn't have time to get into a r'ship, haha! I was very unhappy with my life eversince I start to work. I have too much to complain but I'm not gonna complain here. Anyway, I'm trying to accept everything slowly. Time is all I need. For god sake, I can't wait this year to be over. Tis year have been a pretty bad year for me, things got screwed up and things r not going exactly how I want it to be. Bye bye student life (I miss it so so much!), welcome to working life where I find 'no life'. Oh, well...

It's Hard to Say Goodbye!

It's unbelievable that time flies so fast and this time, me & my bestest best friend forever (BBFF) is gonna be apart from each other across the South China Sea. Fr stranger (same tuition center, recognize each other but dunno each other) to sixth form classmates to unimates + roommates...(don't hav to lesbian la hor). Wow, I'm gonna miss her a lot.

We were separated once during internship but after 3 mths I joined the same company as her for intern. This time is gonna be the real separation whereby I'll be working in Miri while she'll be working in KL. This time is gonna be the real separation. The BF is far apart fr me dy and now my BBFF is also gonna be faraway fr me. We've been thru ups and downs together and I really appreciate it!

I've bought her a very useful tool to protect herself thr but I hope she'll never get to use it although it's nt cheap haha! Anyway, it's kinda unbearable to be separated fr her. Gonna have one less kaki for yamcha, shopping, serious talk & girl's talk dy.Anyway, I hope those she'll meet nice ppl in KL instead of meeting bastards/bitches tat make her life miserable thr. Another thing I reli hope is may she meet her another half over thr. :P

Farewell, my love. All the best to u! Text / call me often eh!!! If got time I go find u shopping & eating spree. Do take care & keep in touch.

Just Not Right

Everything doesn't seems right. Everything changes. Yr of Ox is definitely a very hard year to get through. I'm trying hard to adapt to these new changes, which is pretty hard for me. Life have become so melancholy. Sigh!